Discovered a New Favorite Band

Explosions in the Sky is the name of the new favorite band. They are simply unbelievable and it has been a while since I heard music like this.

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Getting screwed over and letting your chances slip away f***ing sucks. Alcohol, you are about to become my best friend for tonight.

A Prayer Answered with an Answer to a Prayer

A couple days ago I was pulled over by a cop for making an illegal maneuver around 2:00 a.m. I was DD for the night and I was trying to get my friends back home safely and I freaking got pulled over by a cop. The entire time that I was sitting in my car I was either worried to death that I was going to get my second ticket or silently hoping that God would hear my prayers and let me drive away with just a warning. When the cop asked finished looking at my driver's license and vehicle registration she let me get off with a warning. God has heard my prayers; thank God.

For a while, I have always wondered if God would ever answer my prayer about how and when He answers prayers and now I know. He does it on his time even if it takes three, long years of asking.

TEN MORE FREAKING DAYS!!!

I have been waiting four, long years for these these 30 days.

Closer by ODM

There we were, tenth grade in the hallways
I must admit you were the finest thing in all ways
Every day I used to walk you to class, do you remember that?
We used to make each other laugh and had each others back
We had the same birthdays and shared the same dreams
You used to love when I treated you for ice cream
Saturdays, we would meet up at the movies
It was you, your little sister, and your home girl Lucy
I used to trip when you would always be with me
Cause your mom would get mad when I would send you home with hickies
And if she ever caught me around the house
You’d be grounded for a month without a phone to call out
Now, thats okay, we would meet up at the benches
See it was all good when I didn’t have detention
And if I didn’t mention we were friends from the start
There was nothing in the way that ever keep us apart

Closer and closer, after all this time (so close baby)
You’re still in my life (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
And over and over, your love stays on my mind (you’re on my mind girl)
The memory of you still shines

I wont forget the day when you went off to college
You had big dreams and you were out to seek the knowledge
I had a record deal, we started doing shows
And you wouldn’t even trip when girls would pull on my clothes
We saved our money and bought a house up out the neighborhood
And now we’re happy here together and it’s all good
Inbetween the sheets covered up real close
And making love is what you love doing real most
You said you wanted one kid, I said I wanted two
A boy and girl, and that would equal me and you
Sharing dreams while caught up in this moonlight
I never argued and never once caused a fight
Respect was the main key to our relation
Going on trips and spending three week vacations
We lived it up like real lovers were supposed to do
Now come here lady, I wanna get close to you

Closer and closer, after all this time (so close baby)
You’re still in my life (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
And over and over, your love stays on my mind (you’re on my mind girl)
The memory of you still shines

It’s been a long twenty years now and we got plenty more
And ain’t no telling what the future has for us in store
A couple more kids or maybe even grandchildren
See little ODM’s growing up making millions
Making us proud while our name will live on forever
Same club, one mind, it’ll come together
Remaining strong, as strong as our familia
Mi amor, mi corazon, y mi vida

After all these years and after all these tears
The memory of you still shines
After all these years and after all these tears
The memory of you still shines

*The lyrics in this song are beautiful.*

My mom says I need a girlfriend...

Today was a nice day for Mother's Day. I got to see my family today and had a great time spending a part of my day with my family. It's always refreshing to be able to spend some quality time with the family. However, my parents keep on teasing/asking me the same thing every time I see them; do I have a girlfriend yet or asked a girl out on a date? I guess my parents aren't very Chinese in the sense that they are pushing for me to get a girlfriend but I want to have a girl in my life as much as they do. Seeing my mom and dad interact and listening to their stories about how they met made me realize that I need to be much more proactive in my pursuit of finding the "one."

The thing that bugs me the most is that I watched all of the girls I had crushes on form relationships with other guys (some of them being my friend). I don't harbor any bitter feelings about them being together. As long as they're happy and the guys are treating them properly I'm happy but seeing them together always makes me wonder why did I not make a move first. It happened so many times that I literally lost count. I would spend so much time with a girl I had a crush developing our friendship but I could never find a way to express my interest to her. Thus, I always get to the point of being good friends with her but that's as far as our relationship goes which is not necessarily a bad thing either.

I realized over the past few days that I simply don't know how to express my feelings to a girl even if I wanted to. I tried doing that in the past recently and it was an absolute disaster. I didn't know what to say, when is the right moment, or how to even approach the topic and that created a huge mess. I guess I'm supposed to learn from this experience but honestly I rather skip that whole experience (looking back, I don't even know what to fix). Plus, I didn't get a definitive yes or no (her response was almost as confusing compared to what I said). Another thing that was bothering me was do I really like her as much as I believe to or am I simply lying to myself? I don't want to use a relationship to answer that question because I don't see a point in being with someone you don't see yourself spending, potentially, the rest of your life with.

P.s. I don't know why I'm sharing this publicly...This just makes me look sad which is what I don't want, so here's a distracting picture.